Lately, I have so so many things to think and reflect about! I realise that I don't really talk about the day in my posts, but I'd rather think through my actions and write about my feelings.

Today, we went back to PHPPS after Teachers' Day. I stayed back to help with the OSL fundraising, because I felt really bad if I just went back to PHPPS just like that.

I don't know, today I felt really happy and yet reminiscent at the same time. Sometimes I felt as though I was being too loud and crass and I hope that no one thought that I was being action-kia.Like I was trying too hard to be happy and cheerful for the sake of my old primary school friends. Somehow, I was trying to break the ice, but then when I look back at the way I talked and walked, I reminded myself of those overly enthu people who seem so fake. I really hope I wasn't like that. I think I was just trying too hard to seem like the social butterfly, integrating everyone together.

Then and again, I always tend to be extra hyped up when I meet people I know and love.

Hmm today meeting old Ch6 people was cool:D Everyone looked so pretty and handsome. It looks like we're really growing up! Almost everyone in a co-ed school has a bf/gf already.

Sometimes I wonder if we'll ever stay in touch the way my father still hangs out with his secondary school mates. They hang out every Chinese New Year and it's become such a tradition that without fail, every CNY it's a stated fact that we'll definitely be going to a gathering with his old friends! I really hope that will happen for Ch6'06 as well! Will it? Right now, we've already lost some people for good, like we can't even contact them anymore. Were their p6 memories that horrible until they don't want to meet up anymore? I really hope that one day, there will be this gathering where the attendance rate is 100%! That will be my sweet sixteen wish.

Looking at my old classmates, I realised that as one grows into a teenager, looks are everything. Everyone is trying to attract the opposite gender. Even though I tell myself that being a Christian is more important, that it's the inner beauty that counts, I sometimes can't help paying extra attention to my wardrobe it we're going out. Tsk tsk Yuqing.

So many people with birthdays this week!

Maria:
Hey there tablemate, happy belated birthday :D
I know sometimes we have -.- periods of silence where we both feel like nerds but I know that there are alot more times when we had random out of the box conversations about stuff. Hope you had a great birthday but even more so, a wonderful 15th year ahead. Don't worry, you'll always be NUMBA ONE in my eyes.

Yangyi:
Hey there Aunty Yang! Thanks for the relationship advice yeah, but it didn't work out. Even though we're in different schools now and have different hobbies (you-chasing girls; me-studying)I'm still glad to have you as my bro. Happy belated birthday and I really hope that you will find your 15th year ahead full of.. joy?!

Xintong:
Hey Xintong! Most likely you won't read this, but if you do, HAPPY BIRTHDAY! Hope that all is going well for you in NYGH! Still see your face on the chicken essence posters, but I do hope you haven't forgotten about me. Happy birthday and may all your wishes come true. No matter what happens, jiayou and smile always.

So many people with birthdays this week!

Wah! So many things to say! So many FIRST THINGS happened today.

Well, today we finally presented the YT project to the congregation. Yupp, today was the day where I had to play the piano in the sanctuary. I'm telling you, there are no words to describe the experience. It feels so.. scary and yet honorable to be playing the piano for God and this is the one time that you really really don't want to screw up.

Haha in the end I still did. I think it was the bar before YT came in, and I played the note flat. Oh well, miao said that it sounded like I was changing key:) There was this part where I had to flip the page, but my hands were shaking, so I missed and then there was this period of silence where I was playing the melody from memory. Oops :x

Hmm I don't think I'll ever get the chance to play the piano in the sanctuary anymore.

After church, I went out for lunch with Ner, Mel, Rachel and Annajoy. It's my first time eating out with the choir gals as well. We went to the hawker centre above NTUC and had tomyam noodle soup. EYOUCH it was really hot and I don't know how Nerissa managed to eat the entire bowl. Nerissa, you're pro.

When we went back to church, I don't know what came over me but I said that I wanted to see what the church choir was like. Everyone said 'sure!' so I went up with them to the choir room. Initially, I meant to sit at the back and just listen, but Joanne asked me to sit up front with them, then Aunty Rebecca passed me a song sheet. Subconciously, I just started singing along. Their songs are really nice. Not stuffy hymnals, but cool songs with harmonization and lots of staccato.

I think I may want to join church choir!

But I don't think my mom will allow. She'll expect me to use my Sunday afternoon studying for the EYAs. Yeah actually, I'm really scared that if I commit to church choir, I may start skipping it when term 4 starts to mug for my exams. I don't want a repeat of the recre comm thing.

Will pray about it.

Our school counsellor came into class on Friday and told us how to manage stress. She also gave us some pamphlets on excessive anxiety. Here's an exerpt.

"Anxiety affects individuals in different ways. It is therefore important to learn to recognise the common symptoms as listed below:

o I cannot stop worrying
o I keep thinking that something bad will happen to me/my family and friends
o I worry so much that I have problems sleeping.
o I cannot seem to relax
o I cannot concentrate on my tasks at hand
o I am easily irritated and feel tired all the time
o I tremble and have sweaty palms
o I suffer from frequent headaches
o I feel so frightened that I keep panting.
o I feel so tensed that I experience twitching of muscles and a tingling sensation."

Hee:)

Uh-oh this week is going to be tiring.

Monday - double tests that I missed on Thurs because of tonsilitis.
Yeah I had tonsilitis last week and the doctor said that it was a combination of dehydration and low immunity. Haha I think it's just cos' FPS intensive 2h prac fried my brains and gave me a terrible headache and fever.
Haiz so now I have to take my deferred tests while everyone else watches BOF ;}

Also have morning meeting with Foveo, and another meeting after school to discuss hygiene measures for our upcoming fundraiser.

Tuesday- EXCO results revealed!

Wednesday- SS Speech :x

Thursday- DAY 1 of fundraising!

Friday- Chem and Physics SPA; DAY 2 of fundraising!

Eep what am i doing, blogging here.

My cousin's in town all the way from Melbourne. Yupp, that's right, he's an ABC. Australian born Chinese. But he's only what, 10 months right now, so the Aussie accent and ways of life isn't that obvious yet:)

Anyway, the point is, his name is ZAC. Only three letters of the alphabet! If I had a kid, I would definitely give him/her a really sophisticated name, something with three syllables.

Definitely not Abraham though. I think it's quite weird naming someone Abraham (no offense, Ab!) but he would have a really heavy responsibility, being named after the Father of fathers. Oh! Especially in Singapore, since our birth rate is a dismal 1.6%.

Definitely not a name that starts with the first few letters of the alphabet! Imagine what happens during PSLE orals...

Haha maybe something like Marigold or Penelope or Columbus would be a no-no. Very traditional.

Oh yeah, I think I would take it from the Bible though. Wait. Those people out there with names like Joseph and Mary. Do you feel like living up to your namesake? Or should I just choose a name like.. Madonna? Lol sorry not Madonna. Maybe Jazzlyn.

How about Hermoine? Maybe that would spur my kid to be REALLY smart. Yeah. I think that the name has to be symbolic in a way. With true meaning and thought put into it. According to my mom, my grandma looked through the entire dictionary just to find a nice name for me...

OH! Definitely not something starting with W. Wilhelimina, Wimble, Wigg, Weazly, Wawa. I don't know, I think that an English name starting with w is quite funny. Chinese names are okay though. Wanhui, Wanjiun, Wanlun.

:) I must sound really weird right? Planning my kid's name at the age of 15. Haha but I know that deep down, any of you reading this must have already thought a little about it too right. Admit it ;)

Alrighties, back to studying for bao zhang bao dao.

Lately, I have so so many things to think and reflect about! I realise that I don't really talk about the day in my posts, but I'd rather think through my actions and write about my feelings.

Today, we went back to PHPPS after Teachers' Day. I stayed back to help with the OSL fundraising, because I felt really bad if I just went back to PHPPS just like that.

I don't know, today I felt really happy and yet reminiscent at the same time. Sometimes I felt as though I was being too loud and crass and I hope that no one thought that I was being action-kia.Like I was trying too hard to be happy and cheerful for the sake of my old primary school friends. Somehow, I was trying to break the ice, but then when I look back at the way I talked and walked, I reminded myself of those overly enthu people who seem so fake. I really hope I wasn't like that. I think I was just trying too hard to seem like the social butterfly, integrating everyone together.

Then and again, I always tend to be extra hyped up when I meet people I know and love.

Hmm today meeting old Ch6 people was cool:D Everyone looked so pretty and handsome. It looks like we're really growing up! Almost everyone in a co-ed school has a bf/gf already.

Sometimes I wonder if we'll ever stay in touch the way my father still hangs out with his secondary school mates. They hang out every Chinese New Year and it's become such a tradition that without fail, every CNY it's a stated fact that we'll definitely be going to a gathering with his old friends! I really hope that will happen for Ch6'06 as well! Will it? Right now, we've already lost some people for good, like we can't even contact them anymore. Were their p6 memories that horrible until they don't want to meet up anymore? I really hope that one day, there will be this gathering where the attendance rate is 100%! That will be my sweet sixteen wish.

Looking at my old classmates, I realised that as one grows into a teenager, looks are everything. Everyone is trying to attract the opposite gender. Even though I tell myself that being a Christian is more important, that it's the inner beauty that counts, I sometimes can't help paying extra attention to my wardrobe it we're going out. Tsk tsk Yuqing.

So many people with birthdays this week!

Maria:
Hey there tablemate, happy belated birthday :D
I know sometimes we have -.- periods of silence where we both feel like nerds but I know that there are alot more times when we had random out of the box conversations about stuff. Hope you had a great birthday but even more so, a wonderful 15th year ahead. Don't worry, you'll always be NUMBA ONE in my eyes.

Yangyi:
Hey there Aunty Yang! Thanks for the relationship advice yeah, but it didn't work out. Even though we're in different schools now and have different hobbies (you-chasing girls; me-studying)I'm still glad to have you as my bro. Happy belated birthday and I really hope that you will find your 15th year ahead full of.. joy?!

Xintong:
Hey Xintong! Most likely you won't read this, but if you do, HAPPY BIRTHDAY! Hope that all is going well for you in NYGH! Still see your face on the chicken essence posters, but I do hope you haven't forgotten about me. Happy birthday and may all your wishes come true. No matter what happens, jiayou and smile always.

So many people with birthdays this week!

Wah! So many things to say! So many FIRST THINGS happened today.

Well, today we finally presented the YT project to the congregation. Yupp, today was the day where I had to play the piano in the sanctuary. I'm telling you, there are no words to describe the experience. It feels so.. scary and yet honorable to be playing the piano for God and this is the one time that you really really don't want to screw up.

Haha in the end I still did. I think it was the bar before YT came in, and I played the note flat. Oh well, miao said that it sounded like I was changing key:) There was this part where I had to flip the page, but my hands were shaking, so I missed and then there was this period of silence where I was playing the melody from memory. Oops :x

Hmm I don't think I'll ever get the chance to play the piano in the sanctuary anymore.

After church, I went out for lunch with Ner, Mel, Rachel and Annajoy. It's my first time eating out with the choir gals as well. We went to the hawker centre above NTUC and had tomyam noodle soup. EYOUCH it was really hot and I don't know how Nerissa managed to eat the entire bowl. Nerissa, you're pro.

When we went back to church, I don't know what came over me but I said that I wanted to see what the church choir was like. Everyone said 'sure!' so I went up with them to the choir room. Initially, I meant to sit at the back and just listen, but Joanne asked me to sit up front with them, then Aunty Rebecca passed me a song sheet. Subconciously, I just started singing along. Their songs are really nice. Not stuffy hymnals, but cool songs with harmonization and lots of staccato.

I think I may want to join church choir!

But I don't think my mom will allow. She'll expect me to use my Sunday afternoon studying for the EYAs. Yeah actually, I'm really scared that if I commit to church choir, I may start skipping it when term 4 starts to mug for my exams. I don't want a repeat of the recre comm thing.

Will pray about it.

Our school counsellor came into class on Friday and told us how to manage stress. She also gave us some pamphlets on excessive anxiety. Here's an exerpt.

"Anxiety affects individuals in different ways. It is therefore important to learn to recognise the common symptoms as listed below:

o I cannot stop worrying
o I keep thinking that something bad will happen to me/my family and friends
o I worry so much that I have problems sleeping.
o I cannot seem to relax
o I cannot concentrate on my tasks at hand
o I am easily irritated and feel tired all the time
o I tremble and have sweaty palms
o I suffer from frequent headaches
o I feel so frightened that I keep panting.
o I feel so tensed that I experience twitching of muscles and a tingling sensation."

Hee:)

Uh-oh this week is going to be tiring.

Monday - double tests that I missed on Thurs because of tonsilitis.
Yeah I had tonsilitis last week and the doctor said that it was a combination of dehydration and low immunity. Haha I think it's just cos' FPS intensive 2h prac fried my brains and gave me a terrible headache and fever.
Haiz so now I have to take my deferred tests while everyone else watches BOF ;}

Also have morning meeting with Foveo, and another meeting after school to discuss hygiene measures for our upcoming fundraiser.

Tuesday- EXCO results revealed!

Wednesday- SS Speech :x

Thursday- DAY 1 of fundraising!

Friday- Chem and Physics SPA; DAY 2 of fundraising!

Eep what am i doing, blogging here.

My cousin's in town all the way from Melbourne. Yupp, that's right, he's an ABC. Australian born Chinese. But he's only what, 10 months right now, so the Aussie accent and ways of life isn't that obvious yet:)

Anyway, the point is, his name is ZAC. Only three letters of the alphabet! If I had a kid, I would definitely give him/her a really sophisticated name, something with three syllables.

Definitely not Abraham though. I think it's quite weird naming someone Abraham (no offense, Ab!) but he would have a really heavy responsibility, being named after the Father of fathers. Oh! Especially in Singapore, since our birth rate is a dismal 1.6%.

Definitely not a name that starts with the first few letters of the alphabet! Imagine what happens during PSLE orals...

Haha maybe something like Marigold or Penelope or Columbus would be a no-no. Very traditional.

Oh yeah, I think I would take it from the Bible though. Wait. Those people out there with names like Joseph and Mary. Do you feel like living up to your namesake? Or should I just choose a name like.. Madonna? Lol sorry not Madonna. Maybe Jazzlyn.

How about Hermoine? Maybe that would spur my kid to be REALLY smart. Yeah. I think that the name has to be symbolic in a way. With true meaning and thought put into it. According to my mom, my grandma looked through the entire dictionary just to find a nice name for me...

OH! Definitely not something starting with W. Wilhelimina, Wimble, Wigg, Weazly, Wawa. I don't know, I think that an English name starting with w is quite funny. Chinese names are okay though. Wanhui, Wanjiun, Wanlun.

:) I must sound really weird right? Planning my kid's name at the age of 15. Haha but I know that deep down, any of you reading this must have already thought a little about it too right. Admit it ;)

Alrighties, back to studying for bao zhang bao dao.